Saturday, May 31, 2008;11:16 AM Y
And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3
somehow its weird to post twice, one is the OPENLY type, while the other is hidden... Hais.... I just want to say some stuffs~ I miss you(: Though its been a few hours since our last text, still miss you LOADS! haha. I think about you often, & everytime! Wondering whether did you listen to me and slept well? Rest well enough? (: hahah! I know i very naggy! Listen to me ju okay le ^^
Well, on my way home.. I sat beside a friend.. BUS RIDE! 1hour... I looked my hands, I wanted someone to grab it.. But i don't want him to grab it. I wanted you to appear beside me, grab my hand tightly.. never let it go..
& I was tired. I wanted to lie on a shoulder, but i cannot be him, i wanted it to be yours.. Those muscular yet soft shoulders... Lie on em. Feel the warmth of your hug~ hear you say "I love you"... Simple yet sweet =) That's all.. But seems like all these didn't happen.. Cause it wasn't you... It was my friend.. Someone close. i wanted it to be you thought!! There's so many things i wanna do with you, so many places to go to. imiss you... i wanna hold your hand and never let go....
Tsktsk.. Somehow I think that i'm love sick :X saddening! I sat in the bus, thinking about you.. It made my mind run WILD!! I nearly grab my friends hands, thinking that it's yours.. But like that I worry I might cause some unforseen things :(( I want you to be here... I want you... You only.... Where are you?? come back quickly.... I want and need you!!! :[
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Sighs.. THe hot and cold part of life.. I don't know is it me being sensitive or what, but... i'm feeling the cold treatment from you now... I don't know is it something that i've done, or what. but those treaments.. hurt! I felt warmth at times, you telling me stuffs, but when the cold treatment comes, it's icy cold.. I wanted to know what did i do wrong, but i'm scared to ask.. Til i finally asked you earlier and.. you apologised... Ahhh~ What's worse? feeling gulty or having someone to apologise to you when you know its not his fault in the first place but he's taking the blame. Both = my break down...
Bed~ my pillow was wet... I didn't care, i fell asleep.. I listened to the songs being played by my laptop, i thought~.. How nice if i could turn back time and went back to when we were in the toilet.. with my 2 friends~ They were being nice =) we stayed there, the times spent were going real slow, and besides the feeling i got from that place was.... It was my comfort zone! no disturbance, just the 3 of us inside... We talked about teachers, we crapped about em.. Haha~ Cute.. Those were the memories i loved! thanks to the two friends.. anonymus....
I woke up from bed, i freshened up.. and i was back to being me! just a bit grumpy cause of the cuts on my arm.. ouch they hurt,... but nevermind, my souvenier for the trip (: Lalalala...
Friday, May 30, 2008;12:00 AM Y
And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3
I just want to say.. what the fuck is wrong with you girl???? Why must you make things so difficult for him?? trying to play hard to get? I don't think so?.. you had to injure his precious heart, by making him the cuckold. Fucked someone else just cause he's at overseas now? haha you bitch.. I hate you!! you're such a fuck-ed up bitch!! You disgrace every female species in the world!! because of people like you, others are stero-typing that all girls are prostitutes!! Who sells their body just for cash, and they ain't conserved enough.. So they allow any men to get close and insert their dicks inside you! damn, i hate you.. To think i pitied you for a moment, i wanted to back out.. send my blessings to both of you, but you had to hurt him again and again.. i'm disappointed... Even if its a lie, you didn't have to go to this extend... A guy, having his girl sleep with another man is..akin to destroying his dignity and being treated as a dirt. Its FAR TOO MUCH!
why am i not shocked if he really left you?? =))) i'd be glad for him.. you better have some reflections upon yourself alright???
