Separated;Lost; Heartbroken;

I have nothing else to say... Today have been a tough and a rough day. Even though I had fun with the people today, its been quite a long and tiring day for me. Hehehe.
The day started off, I woke up late! Gosh, I thought he was going to kill me, seems like I was earlier though I was late ;] *whee~*
Took a bus to Bukit Timah and went shopping for some ice-cream, marshmallow, snacks and lastly, an Eeyore! We went to read some "x" magazines all about FEMALES~ haha! My secret is EXPOSED x)
Anyways left the area, left the items at his place and went to sit down and relax a bit. Just had fun looking at the scenery & being the best bitch and bastard EVER! haha!! After an hour? We started roaming around the area, & finally on walking under an overhead-driveway, we saw this couple, they were sitting there, in an awkward position. I didn't know until SOMEONE asked me to look?! haha. I saw then I turned and I wonder, what in the world were they doing? LC?! haha! Who cares, but sadly, I didn't get a free show :( *sobs*
Went off to find Sze Ern and Marco! Amazing how much I missed them. :o boohoo~~ Went off to meet up with the rest of the peeps and the weather was super duper warm! Reached the place soon and today, it was different! Instead of the usual things, we had dancers coming! They were called "Nubian Gents and Feminine Fire". They were American Black dancers which came today to dance for us, and it was super duper nice! haha! I had loads of fun watching the dancers dance + sing. They were super good!! ;p
I had loads of fun at the service, and of cause, with great company, of Sze Ern, Marco, Andros, Jeslin, Shu En, Kong An, and many many more! They were being the nice people they can be again! haha!
Then for after-session time together, we had this get-together at Andros' place. So we got together and had chocolate fondue! It was super super nice, yet it wasn't dinner definitely! I didn't want to eat so much! After eating, there were more games, & I did some homework alone upstairs as it was quite noisy. Who knew, Lu Wei came up and started playing the guitar, + Andros and they sang! Kuku heads, they totally distracted me, yet I was de-stressing with their amazing singing talents! haha! Serious uh, its quite nice to sing duet "Always Be My Baby".

The time really pass very fast when you're having fun. We had more food and food! + games and games! It was fun! Then I was enjoying my time, me + the air-con. Our special moments together. Air-con gave me the cool air, I showed him a smile and he blew more cooling air at me.. BLEH! just crapping, once again x)
Went to finish my homework and that was when I started to think A LOT!! I was thinking, of different things and more things. I just thought and thought... Til I finally BROKE!~ I was at the edge of falling, I just couldn't stand it anymore and said it. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you and make you tear for me. I'm such a bitch to do that. I didn't want to sit there, not doing anything. I knew I had to do SOMETHING! but it matters as to, WHAT and HOW am I going tot do it!? Haiz, I'm just feeling super down right how. I don't know why.... Have I made the right decision? Is things going to be okay? I don't know, its hard to find out, but I really hope that I'll discover it asap!
I went to solo night~ Spam the "kens + light" and finally I seh diao~ I was tired, and I am right now, but I'm going to type a bit more. I really love you, it has always been you and always you. I need no one else to add on things to confuse you more, or make you think too much okay? You have any doubts, clear it with me~ No problem, I'll answer you honestly.... Don't ask outsiders, as me. Okay? [:

Went home at around late late at night, and finally reached home.. Tomorrow... AKA Today... will it be awesome?

I feel like the world has turn its back on me...
I don't know, the feel of walls closing on you....
Darkness falls upon the soul,
& I can't take anymore~~~

Savage the situation, that's all I need to do. SOON!! Let's see what we get...