Confused! I'm super super confused right now!
A short post, maybe about my previous days, I got my 9th piercing! It was done on the Sunday because of some reasons. I was disappointed, but oh hell. Predicted!... Monday was a total bore! Ended classes at 5pm, and went home straight after that. i really hope that, Tuesday 15th July 2008 was the best day ever! I was looking forward, but seems like... these things were predictable. haha

&&, I was excited from this morning, because I'm going to see andy! Like after a few months?! how cool? I knew, that my chances of getting to see his was totally low, but I hanged on, and I wanted to really, get what I wanted. I "ren" throughout. I didn't know what to do, I just pushed myself, to tahan the hard sufferings that I've been through, just to see and be with him.. Yeah, I'm not complaining, but just stating how I really felt then.. :(

Everything was alright, until this morning, when I couldn't see him anymore due to some reasons. :( I was totally pissed and angry, ; LEAVE ME ALONE was what I said. I felt really unhappy that the multiple times, we just failed to meet up! I was and am very angry......... I just don't know how to expressing my feelings.. I just felt as if the world has crashed onto my shoulders, and I felt the heavy burden. I feel super disappointed now, Really am...

The afternoon was my listening comprehension, it was totally screwed up, so I don't want to talk about it.. Went to find Andros for some stuffs. It was totally soothing..Soon I'll get addicted to it, haha! Til then wish me luck!! Went to find the peeps and we went to mac. Me, Andros and someone else went out mac HQ for a breather. I felt so much better and thanks for letting me share my things :{ My head was totally heavy and, yeah I stayed over for a while more before leaving for home.

It was interesting, but on the way back, I had a short/long talk with andy, we had loads of fun talking or should I say I enjoyed it. The time back was alright, til I heard some news from someone else. I felt that I needed to clarify with some man topic. haha! We changed position and went out for a breather. I had loads of fun and of cause was de-stressed! Yeah, I'm trying to rest and think for a while before someone told me something andy :( On hearing this news, I couldn't believe, and I clarified things. But who knew, reality hurts more! I just felt my heart has totally cracked into pieces and went down!! :[

I don't know why, I'm really glad you offered to help me that's why you had this mind-set to help me in any way, to help me feel less stress. :[ But,... I'm just scared, why did you even have this mind-set? Meaning? That in the future, you'll be doing it!! Reality.. I'm going to lose you one day, I know... haiz. I feel, that I've had enough.. i don't know, if this were to happen again, i'd break!.. for sure.... into million pieces.. haiz... I'm really afraid! :[ karma..... haiz.... I'm just feeling really really confused right now.. I need time to think it through......

&&, i totally feel like crying now.. Really...... tears fall upon the eyes... :/ I need time to think it though alone...


somehow, after reading something... I feel, that i'm really a failure.. Why? i haven't been the best girlfriend I can ever be. I've been neglecting the feelings and hidden meaning of his actions.. I used to think, i'm always the right one, he's always wrong. Yet this time, i know i'm in the wrong.. haiz.. I'm the wrong party.... &&, I hate this...... I need to understand people more..... haiz

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Thinking about you every day and night wondering are you doing the same
The days that were spent together will always remain
Don't give up, cause I'll always be here for you no matter what

I want to feel how you're feeling,
I want to go through the sufferings with you..
I wanna be the strong independent girl for you to lean on,
I want to take care of you..

I want to love you with all my heart,
I want you to not lose hope,
I want to be there for you always,
I want you..

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Name; laoPO♥
Age; 16 this year
Sagittarius

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~.Wish List.~

01. I-pod
02. New Laptop
03. New Casing
04. Ear-Pluged - EarPiece
05. Get into NgeeAnn Poly
06. New Handphone
07. New high-cut shoes
08. 10th Ear Hole
09. NIL
10. NIL

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It goes out to everyone, including the reader, [YOU]
More love to the closed ones;
TWO in fact, no comparision because they are both my guardian angels~

1.my BABY - my heart has your name written all over!
2.ragingPIG - hongster {[bitch & bastard]}