I nearly gave up, gave up from the hardship I've been through.

School was alright today. I've been trying to focus real hard on the various topics that the teachers are rushing through, yet at times I'm still blurred about some questions about the topic, yet I didn't bother to ask cause I knew that if I did, I'd be dragging the day more. *sighs* I was wishing for home when I was in school, and now I'm at home, I'm wishing to go to town to grab some ice-cream, or pop by jurong to meet up with darling. *sobs*... I just got news about some stuffs, and I'm going to emphasise on it later on. But for now, all I can blog about is about my 2nd home [school], which I usually spend almost half my day there? Early morning 7am, I step into the home, I looked at the different rooms we have, wow, so homey~ From 7am, until 5pm usually? Around 10hours in school. wow, I barely spend this amount of time at home unless I'm really lazy or sick! &, the amount of time I spend with my teachers, its definately more than my parents, DEFINATELY! I wonder, would my teachers one day, become our gan-mom or dad? How cool is that?

From a teachers' point of view, 40 newly adopted kids! whee~ & defaintely for me, a new mommy/daddy! How nice? :D another mother to take care and pamper us :p hehes~ Well, yes, school has been my 2nd home since, forever. But not to drag on about this, I just want to say and maybe pray for tomorrow...

Dear lord, I really hope that god, you will be able to take care of andy and make sure he manages to survive through the major thing tomorrow. Lord, he's actually a nice guy, and I believe that as long as he puts in effort to change over, he'll be a good kid. I really hope that dear lord, you'll be able to give him the strength and hope to pull this through tomorrow. Its a big day for him, yes indeed, so is it for me. I'm about to have my o's oral examinations paper tomorrow too. I really hope that lord, you'll be able to give me the hope and strength too to be able to do well for my paper, so that I'll be able to do well and make my parents, andy and definately, you lord, proud. I really hope for the best for tomorrow,and no matter what the outcome is, I will always believe that, dear lord, you've done your best to help me. I will thank, you lord, for all that you've done, and pray.... Amen.

Darling, I know you've heard me nag a thousand, millions times about your health, so I'm not going to nag at you again here. You've been there for me, always been there. I'm happy to just even know you, let alone got a chance to love you?? Gosh, I don't know how blessed I am already??? Haha. I'm sorry about the mood swing and about how I acted earlier. I had the feeling that our first quarrel was to start, yet lucky me, you were nice to allow me to have my mood swings and flare my mood swings towards you. I'm sorry. The suggestion of leaving was super silly and a stupid thing to do. I really had the thought to say the sentence, I was on the verge of breaking, yes I was. I just stared at the laptop screen and told myself. I'm going to lose you, definately. Why not let you go peacefully? and maybe you'll feel better leaving this world without worries? But what the?! I'm talking about death here! Its serious!! I'm going to get serious too :( I'm DEAD serious right now. And I want to tell you this, you listen up.. I want you to do your best, to fight all the pain and sufferings. I really beg you, just ONE MORE!, please just do it for me. Survive this, and all pain cum sufferings will be over. Promise you that i'll take good care of you!!

Andros-ge once asked me this question, STUDIES VS BOYFRIEND, after much thought, BF won! believe it? haha. Yes, I mean it! You can take all your time to study, all the time to get a diploma, degree, masters, phD, but you don't have time to accompany your bf?? You're important to me, yes you are. I want you to know that, Wo Ai Ni!! Really really love you to the max!! [: I don't know how to express, neither do I know whether you're able to feel my love? But just that, I want you by my side, ALWAYS by my side to support me whenever I fall. Yes darling?? ^^ okay... I guess I have to go soon... Its 12midnights, my eyes are droopy again, sobs~. Well, good nights people,& i really hope darling to be able to see this before he goes :)

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Thinking about you every day and night wondering are you doing the same
The days that were spent together will always remain
Don't give up, cause I'll always be here for you no matter what

I want to feel how you're feeling,
I want to go through the sufferings with you..
I wanna be the strong independent girl for you to lean on,
I want to take care of you..

I want to love you with all my heart,
I want you to not lose hope,
I want to be there for you always,
I want you..

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Age; 16 this year
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~.Wish List.~

01. I-pod
02. New Laptop
03. New Casing
04. Ear-Pluged - EarPiece
05. Get into NgeeAnn Poly
06. New Handphone
07. New high-cut shoes
08. 10th Ear Hole
09. NIL
10. NIL

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It goes out to everyone, including the reader, [YOU]
More love to the closed ones;
TWO in fact, no comparision because they are both my guardian angels~

1.my BABY - my heart has your name written all over!
2.ragingPIG - hongster {[bitch & bastard]}