Thursday, July 3, 2008;10:24 PM Y
And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3
Hey, just here to write a short post about my day. I'm feeling very lonely right now, and super stressed up and I hate myself for not being able to do well for anything!Time's running short, darling has left for his operation.. Its been 13hours since his last text, and I'm getting worried. I don't feel like texting or calling him, which might end up being answered by his sister, and maybe I'd hear her cry or what? Which will, definately, make me cry too. I told him, I'd wait for his text, and that will be from him. A text from him to tell me its all over, and everything is going to be alright from now on. Yes, I really want to recieve this text from him, soon!
But I shall let on another secret that happened, or should I say found and clarified with today. It was shocking to me, and after knowing this news, I'm really confused right now. Yes indeed, it has to do with someone, and someone, and... more someone :D It's my secret, and I shan't reveal it here?? But I'm just confused. really confused and lost. "i'm LOST, BROKEN, CONFUSED~" I don't know what reaction I should have, neither do I know what should I do next. I just want time to pass, so that things clear or suface clearer? Yeah, I'd need a guide, seriously. I'm feeling that whatever decision, I'm going to hurt someone. So I have to make a clear and strong decision. Kimberly jiayou!
&, to cut short, my chinese o's oral topic today was about the youth olympic 2010. Why did singapore won the place to hold this event? I was stunned!? You know how easy is this right? But I had this stubborn thought, that the youth olympic WILL NEVER come out?! Because I thought, since its only a recent thing that was announced, they wouldn't have the time to change the oral topics or what? But who knew? thanks to that topic, I think i'm going to flunk my exams. I was practically chased out of the examination area?! They were like, you have anything else to say? Then okay, that's all, good bye~ and ask me to leave!! Oh hell, how embarrassed or sad I was? I was depressed and cursed and swear at every sentence! What the?? -.- I'm sorry darling and andros for not being able to do my best for the paper. I really hope that my listening might bring my results up :( i really hope!!! sobs...
13hours, when will you reply? i'm waiting by the phone each minute, each second, just to wait for your phone call. Darling I miss you`
