Once again, its the same ending. *laughs* I don't know what to say, neither do I want to say or comment anything about my day...
True, the morning was awesome because I managed to finish my E-mathematics papers, with the help with the handy dandy ragingPIG! Took some effort to persuade him to do the E-maths paper 1, while I did the E-maths paper 2. It was awesome, and its productive! [:

After that, left Marco and Andros, on my journey to some place, don't know where..
I shan't elaborate it, because I'm not really in the mood right now...

Just that, I really have to comments about things now. 7 times... Once bitten Twice shy... I realise.... at times, I must never get hopes up too high, because at times the sky might not be strong enough and just cause you to fall down.... Yes, I admit, I did spent my whole afternoon, for ONE purpose. It was worth it definitely!! Because whom I'm going to see, its definitely worth it, I swear...
Yes, the thoughts were there, but my hopes were not high, not close. I've been hurt, for quite some time.. So, I'm just being prepared.... 3.10pm, the time the wonderful text came in! My hopes flew up!! I was excited, oh my gosh... In a few moments time, I'm going to be able to see him {: I was high, as if I was on drugs! then, I waited...... & waited....

As time pass by, I begun to lose the hope again.. I didn't want to say this, but the words kept ringing in my head.. "he's not going to show up".. I kept on thinking, or at least hoped he would! til 5.45pm... That was when, I said goodbye.....
Goodbye day, goodbye everything. I just went back, disappointed once again. I didn't want that to happen, I was trying my best to put things aside, keep my good spirit mood up, but seems like... its difficult!!

I haven't felt like this... Neither do I want to feel this EVER... I don't ever want to be disappointed again!! I really don't want to!! I don't blame anyone, but myself only!! I really, can't make any decisions now. I'm having the devil and angel conflicts on my shoulders, telling me two different things about what is right, and what is wrong.. I can't decide, but I guess............. the ending of our story will not be like those fairy tale books, where they lived happily ever after... unless you can count on a miracle.....

You said, you needed me. I know! That's the thing that's keeping me by your side. I want to be there for you and support you in every way that I can. Yet on the other hand, I don't want to be a fool, a silly dummy who went to the opposite side of the country, to find herself... all alone...
I don't deny that you've been there to love me and given me every support that I need... I don't deny that meeting you, was the best thing that ever happened to me. i don't deny the fact that I did loved you whole-heartedly and wanted you to be mine to badly that I went head over heels for you.. I don't deny all these facts...

But you do know, there are factors that are erasing these happy memories off me. You do know that these factors are starting to make me change... Either for the better or worse~

I did want you, I did love you, I really do. But this is driving me nuts!! I'm in love with cyber dude! that's YOU! I barely, or haven't seen or felt you.... Its been all the texts, calls and MSNs.. That's all it is to our relationship. Our relation, its like a distant one. Those from LA, and Singapore. Its far and soon the feelings will definitely fade... You should agree with me on this area, because you know its all true.. Maybe you're feeling like this too, I don't know.... &&, we're definitely drifting. I don't know how or what to do already....

Every time, I try to take a step to find you, it'll be a failure plan. Or I try to force things, the results would turn chaotic... I'm going nuts, I don't think I can take it anymore... I want you, yet factors are affecting our happy ending results. Its turning them into horrible nightmares.. I'm sure you're feeling this too, and I'm glad that you tried to carry things on... You've worked hard enough, I think its time to just relax and chill. Get some breather.. Be a happy living person, be yourself and take care... i will always be here for you, no matter what status I have.. Even if one day we turn out to be foe, I'll still be here for you to support you. You can count on me....

Think it through about things... Today wasn't the cause of my decision. It was the trigger to let my emotions out... Think it through and tell me how you feel honestly okay? & this has nothing to do with other parties. Its just us and our problems.... We must solve it soon..... jia you..

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Thinking about you every day and night wondering are you doing the same
The days that were spent together will always remain
Don't give up, cause I'll always be here for you no matter what

I want to feel how you're feeling,
I want to go through the sufferings with you..
I wanna be the strong independent girl for you to lean on,
I want to take care of you..

I want to love you with all my heart,
I want you to not lose hope,
I want to be there for you always,
I want you..

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Name; laoPO♥
Age; 16 this year
Sagittarius

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~.Wish List.~

01. I-pod
02. New Laptop
03. New Casing
04. Ear-Pluged - EarPiece
05. Get into NgeeAnn Poly
06. New Handphone
07. New high-cut shoes
08. 10th Ear Hole
09. NIL
10. NIL

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It goes out to everyone, including the reader, [YOU]
More love to the closed ones;
TWO in fact, no comparision because they are both my guardian angels~

1.my BABY - my heart has your name written all over!
2.ragingPIG - hongster {[bitch & bastard]}