Tuesday, July 8, 2008;9:32 PM Y
And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3
Today has been a tough day for me. I had a long night, thinking, crying, and definately a noisy night thanks to somebody. haha. Yes, I had some problems, not sure what it was, can't remember, neither do I want to anyways. I was just thinking... Can I forget the past, forget and erase all sight, execpt for him.. I want everyone to disappear, other girls to disappear.. I'm selfish, that's me! I want him all to myself, but looks like its impossible. Things can happen, so I don't hope for the best and always get myself prepared to fall anytime soon. My thoughts for the night, was vivdly clear. I remembered, we fought. Over slightest thing as to, why didn't you take care?? & we blamed each other for the things that happens, thinking that its all our fault!We were too busy fighting, that we didn't think of the good side of this? Why are we blaming ourselves? Its because we love the opposite, and care for em. Yes, sorry andy for what happened last night. I just hope that you're alright & over that incident ...just saw something.... I wasn't but I AM disturbed by it.
*Its such a leisure seeing him...*
Crapped! I just feel so jealous on seeing this, i really am. Haiz, Its not fair. Others get to see him everyday, look at his wonderous features from head to toe, his cute actions and get to hear his voice 24/7. Yet what about me? I barely can do these. I only can hear him, let alone touch or see him.? Oh crap~ I hate this. I really hate this. *sighs*. Oh what the hell! I'm going to go into my depression mood soon. & i'm just, happy that I know that someone will always be there for me, supporting me. Yes, its you! the person who requested and rushed me into blogging. haha!
Anyways thought there are bad stuffs, but there are some good things too. Like.... I got home by 4 and slacked around. I managed to not feel pissed off with some unwanted peeps that I met or talked to. &, i managed to fool a silly guy today with my wonderful written work :] naive! plus, dear called to talk to me, haha, how often do I get this? RARELY, but i still treasure every conversation with him, no matter how long it is. &, i finished my chemistry homework though i'm postive that 50% of the answers are wong? &, Andros-ge played the guitar for me? Song; its all about you; by someone? && TongueTied - FaberDrive! LOVELYsong! xD And... Last but not least, a gift, picture from deary andy. Sweet right?
don't know why lately he has been so nice to me lately that I'm feeling the.... strange feeling. That something is going to happen :( but i hope i'm wrong!
baby, i love you too!!, always be mine?
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