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Monday, August 11, 2008;8:05 PM Y
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I'm currently undergoing a pain state right now. It hurts, I don't know why. I thought it was all over between us, but seems like it'll be very difficult. I just want to say, good luck to you tomorrow for your op. I really hope that all well ends well. I believe, you'll be able to do it..

& no, you may think that I won't care or won't notice, but I know I will. Because, i'm going to spam calls and texts to your phone... Til you reply and tell me, "I'm alright"

Please, allow yourself to survive and pull this through. Because.... I know you will... Stay happy baby... please, stay happy..




Sunday, August 10, 2008;11:31 PM Y
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kimmy-the-lonelygirl.blogspot.com

another exposed blog of mine. haha, most probably update all my life events there. and if there's any deep dark dark secrets I need to share, it'll be here :p wahahaha...

sillyboy; stay happy always, and i'm not naggy!! I'm just concerned :(




;8:03 AM Y
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The whole of yesterday, it was tough to get by.... I'm trying hard, to decide what I want. But it seems like, everything that I do, it seems to go the wrong way. Especially in making decisions. I don't even know whether doing this, is the right thing or not. I really don't know. But what I know, is that... whatever decision I make, either ways someone will be hurt. At times I question myself, do he really love me. Words yes, actions? I really don't know. Maybe I'm just being too demanding or maybe I'm just being selfish. I remember, that time I dressed up for him, just for HIM. Yet, I waited at the shopping mall like an idiot, waiting for him. He was still stuck in the hospital as his dad was watching him. I don't know, I actually hoped that for once, you would sneak out or least tell your father, just for ONE day.. You would just risk it, just to see me. But no, I waited for 3 hours alone, and by then, I still have to wait for van to come over and assist you? She was coming down from home! How long more do you want me to wait?? I looked around when people stared at me. I could feel that they were mocking me, dressing up and waiting for nothing. I felt........
I thought I didn't care about it, but it really did hurt for me. Did it hurt for you?

I realise, if things really did work out, and these things didn't happen. I believe that we would last, til the very end? Marry each other? Have a nice family and a wonderful house to live in. Wouldn't that be nice? Seems like its too late to turn back the clock, but I don't think it can even be done.

baby; you've been doing all the wonderful things for me, cooking my favourite food, sewing, chocolates?? I can't seem to thank you enough. The thing I made for you, for our 2nd month anniversary, its still with me. Everyday I open my closet, I look at it. I thought, when will be the day you come and take it away from me? Hmmm, til now I still hope that you would show up, right at my doorstep, and tell me, the hardship is all over. I want all these sufferings to vanish from your sight. I know, I once said that I'd be there for you always, and I will!! Since I said that, I will keep my promise. But the only thing that have changed is that, I'll be here for you as a friend.
I'll be more than willing to give you all the support you need to get things through, give you the hugs that you need! I would! But please, don't hurt yourself anymore..
I know, beebe had went off, and everything seems to be crashing onto you. I'm sorry for leaving.... I hope you understand that, I had my reason for doing that. But I don't know if I made the right decision, because you seem to be affected by me, in whatever things I say. You, will be the one suffering. I don't want that to happen.
I admit, the feelings for you, has slightly faded, not because of any other but it has.... I was thinking hard, on that Friday, whether I made the right decision. I questioned my friend, he said, if you made it, don't regret because its of no use? I agree with him, so I won't regret, but I really hope that I'll be able to help in supporting you again.

baby; friend or girlfriend, its just a status. I really hope you agree with me on this, and I hope that, after you read this, you'll gain some hope. I just want to say; I am and will always be here for you! I seriously, WILL! But even if I want to give you the support, you have to take it right? Things are going tough for you I know. But then, I seriously blame myself for leaving you in the lurch. But NO, I won't leave you alone. I'll be here for you. Get things over alright? Please, after reading this, I really hope you will at least, give my a text or call. Just tell me, you'll survive the Tuesday op! Tell me you'll be alright. I need to see or hear that. & please tell me that you will take my hand and allow me to support you and cheer you on. I know, status wise, it will be different, but I really hope you won't mind. I'm not going for any other guy, because now, I have a task! Will you accept this hand of mine, to support you? I really want to help you, and help you regain hope in life. I don't know how will I do it, but I want to!! Please give me a chance, to help you.
You can ignore this, if you think its over already.. Because, I wouldn't have anything to say. I'm really trying my best, and I want to give you the best I can. I can't buy you a home, nor buy you anything fanciful because me myself, I'm broke. & I barely have enough cash to get by meals, so its either you see me eat or not eat at all. But I did take care of myself, and I'm not sick.. because I know you need my support! so I cannot bear to fall ill, because I have to take care of you andy~

Stop deluding yourself, thinking that you can do this alone. I don't think anyone can. Since beebe is not there for you, I don't know if you have the support of nette or chun or who. But, I really hope that, I'll be able to help you get by...

please call or least, text me, by today..... 12midnight! I'll be waiting. If you don't text, I think I get you and I won't enter your life again. I'll vanish as a thorn from your life and hope that others will be able to push you on...

Take care~
#kimmy




Saturday, August 9, 2008;7:40 AM Y
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I don't know if what I'm doing now is the right thing, but all I know is that, this game is getting too difficult for me to go through... I admit, I haven't given my best in this relationship, but its not because I don't want to. Its because of the past experiences and the previous multiple times of being made a fool out of, that scares me. I don't want to go through this anymore. I want to be strong for you, but I don't think I can make it. I seem to break down, or feel crapped whenever it comes to meeting up. Cause I know... What are the chances that you'll show up?? I don't know.
"Once bitten; twice shy"
I'm feeling down once again. Yesterday wasn't such a good day to start these, because I was in the middle of a school event when we talked about this. It was hard walking pass people and with your red eyes, they just can't bear to see me like that and they stopped me, ask me what's wrong. I can't even open my mouth, because I know if I say anything, I'd just tear. I must be strong, and not let anyone see my soft side. I bit my lips and tried to smile every time anyone looked at me... the day was tough....

After school, some peeps arranged to go to sentosa to slack around, and celebrate Darren Eng's birthday. Being there really kept me relaxed and chilled.. I looked at the bikini babes around, the hunk guys and I thought, how I wish you were here with me. *Sighs* I stoned at the beach for quite some time. I was tired, I don't know why but my day has been an exhausting one I believe. Thanks Huanni for the egg + chicken + mayo sandwich. That kept me alive for the day ^^ Believe it ;
9am - bowl of noodles
5pm - egg + chicken + mayo sandwich
10pm - porridge
Look at my meal.. Nice right? haha. I know I said that I would eat. But seems like for my whole day, I didn't have much appetite and I really didn't want to buy anything to eat. Money issues. haha..

Hmmm, left sentosa at around 5 plus, went vivo to change because there were sand all over me, inside the shirt, pants and all! Thanks to Damien Teo! He's going to get it on Tuesday! Grrrr* Went to find a friend, went all the way to dover and slacked. Didn't know the night view there was super nice! Seriously, the stars were better from that side, unlike my area, tsktsk.. Slacked til around 9 plus before leaving for home. & please, no cab ^^, The cabby uncles scare me :x So went home, feeling all tired, I fell asleep soon after eating and bathing. Didn't study yesterday, so planning to study today. Hope I can spend my time wisely this time..

# not trying to forget you, just give us some space to think it through. If love abide, I believe that things will be better. Don't you?

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Friday, August 8, 2008;12:46 PM Y
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Once Again; Kimmy has entered into her emotional world!
TRY NOT TO PISS HER OFF, cause you'll GET IT!


Let me tell you a story about someone;
****** has never been truly loved by any guys before. Most of them, liked her for certain reasons, others liked her to get to her girlfriends. Interesting right?
She has never had a wonderful love life, because they all ended way too early even before anything deep can be formed! She never believed in trusting guys, because all of them were bastards who wants to sleep with girls, or they are just purely flirts!
Around April, that was when things started to change and she felt something special about this guy. Yes, he was nice, sweet, cute and of cause caring. That is what girls need the most, someone to care!! She wanted to give him a shot, so the journey of the sweet couple begun.
First few weeks, it was the best weeks ever spent! Day, night, together! Although faces were not met, but within the heart, you could actually see that there were true love going on between them.
The guy was happy of cause, and so was the girl. But something kept on troubling her, which was the outsiders which kept on interrupting the couple. She started to lose faith in the guy, but somehow, with his sweet words, she manages to get her back. Yes, he had a sweet voice and is able to sweet talk people, but nevertheless, the girl chose to believe that he was the one for her.
Everyone said that he was the wrong choice, and he was just like other guys who wanted to cheat on her! She turned deaf ears on them, and ignored their advices. She made her decision, and she was right. Why?
Because, she discovered something. Something even better than electricity, something even better than toilet bowls! She discovered that... all girls need someone to support them, no matter how strong the girl is, they would still need a strong man, to be there to give them a sense of secure and support them!
She discovered, found, loved, HIM!
She told herself, he was the one, the one whom could enlighten her life, and would be able to give her a secure and enjoyable life. She thought she was right, but things started changing...

The unforeseen things started happening, and both went through a lot a lot just to keep close to each other. Though faces were not met, the hearts bonded.. She felt very lucky even though she has to worry, from day to night, about the guy. She felt that it was a bless to worry for him! She felt that he was a gift to her, to love her and be there for her. She was happy...
She thought she could withstand the things and hardship going through the couples. She wanted to be there for him, 24/7! Just to tell him, "I love you baby and I'll always be here for you."


Ever wonder, always is actually a very scary word to use. Yes it is. Sometimes, to say this to someone, it take... quite some time to process, how long do can you actually promise that always? Don't know? haha.
I believe the girl has regretted all that she's promised, about things that she promised to do, about things she promised to achieve for the guy... She has broken down! I believe the guy must be super disappointed in her right now, because she was suppose to be there for him, support him?! But where is she now? Dammit!
really hope, things will turn out for the better, decisions made, will never be regretted again...
Please, allow that to happen. Please keep him safe from all harm.

I need him, to tell me things........ I don't know how he really feels now...
i need him to tell me, he needs me...





Thursday, August 7, 2008;5:48 PM Y
And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3
A quick update before I leave for some dinner, to celebrate (early) for my mommy's birthday. Amazing she born a year before Singapore. So I'd bet you guys know how young is she? :p And she has the same birthday as Singapore ^^ Nice right? Its like, having the whole country celebrate her birthday with her. Plus she get a chance to see fireworks during her birthday? :DD

She's leaving early for her holiday with papa and her friends, to celebrate her birthday. They are leaving tomorrow :( Take care mommy and daddy.. Bon voyvage, and take care!!

Hmm.. yesterday, it wasn't that good. Don't know why. but just felt that I could have spent my time more wise? Anyways, I just want to say, that i'm sorry for the mood swings lately. I think my pms is coming soon. Hope not tomorrow! because I have a sentosa to catch! :p wahahaha!

# baby take care of yourself. I feel very down at times, when you can't be there for me and I can't be there for you when things happen. I feel the.... space.. I'm trying to find means to fill that gap up between.. I hope that it'll be easy..
Everything seem to be going the wrong way. Just as I was ready to give it all, something comes popping up from no where! I shouldn't get affected, but I don't know why.. I am :x Sorry.. I'm trying to get my head into the game... Focus!!

Study hard peeps!! :]]

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Tuesday, August 5, 2008;10:04 PM Y
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Tuesday! SLACK DAY!!
I'll never remember this day, because the only STUDYING period we had, was during CHEMISTRY?! Out of 11 periods, only 2 periods were studying?! The other 9? Were free periods! Haha, for some of my friends..

Period 1, 2 & 3 -- English
It wasn't a free period for me, because the classes were banded. Then my teacher was around. We did some summary and comprehension. It was totally tough going through 3 periods of ENGLISH! But hell, did manage to survive anyway x] Where as, my few lucky classmates got their 3 periods off! Because their teacher were off on course? :] lucky peeps!

Period 4 &5 -- Physics
My teacher had courses to attend to, so we got this free period, but we had some work to do. Did the first and last page, pretend to finish the whole stack and fell asleep :p hehes. Somehow, this skill is passed on by my dear brother of mine! Like bro like sis! :D haha!

RECESS
same old, recess with lunch buddy! Ate til shiok shiok :]]
but during the process, did some stupid thing. asked some stupid question, that totally killed me. ARgh, my and my mouth! Why can't I just shut it up?! Grrrr...! I hate it when I do something wrong! :((

Period 6 & 7 -- Biology
Suppose to have some test on reproduction on humans? But didn't really learn :p haha! Anyways, teacher didn't come! Oh hell XD but we got this relief teacher, totally awesome! He was a great story teller, motivator! He motivated me into studying and got me into high spirit :P Anyways I was eating in class then, crackers? Then the back door was open. Didn't know my dm walked pass. Then I was also texting, as in my phone was exposed! But lucky for me, he took the crackers, and didn't notice the phone ? :X ooopsy! Lucky me! :p

Period 8 & 9 -- Mother Tongue
THIS WAS SUPPOSE TO BE FREE PERIOD!! &, no matter what, it still is :p hahaha! We did some english paper! this time, I did the first 2 page, last 2 page. & slept. Kuku friend of mine, didn't allow me to sleep, then he tickle me, using his eerie finger. SUPER COLD! then at last, thanks to a smart gf I had, she suggested BINGO!! :D we played... then it was like.. super duper fun!! Love playing with them ^^, my class rocks! hehes.. Better treasure them, while I can, before it dispersed :X hoho!... played til classes end and, a

SHORT BREAK!!

Period 10 & 11 -- Chemistry
Did some SPA skill 3, and had some fun :p Then did more revision.. And that was the first proper lesson we had! WHEEE!!
Could have slept at home, and missed school today luh :( sobs

&&, I shall end here with a .
good nights sweet dreams!!

I miss you still :X hoho, and you too!! ^^ lalala~ good nightes
toodles~


# really hope this friend of mine, and his friend, will make up. Its not good to fight between friends.. :( really hope you two will talk or something ah ^^ please? :x Really saddening to see you two fight.. It hurts... good luck dudes

# haha i was silly to get affected over that silly question.. maybe I should be strong myself too. Maybe just.... not think so much... hmmm, wonder when will the day come?? I need.....you




Monday, August 4, 2008;7:35 PM Y
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There! Here are the pictures I owe :D Haha! Didn't add in some because I'm lazy to upload :p hehes
&&
a quick post about my day? Hmmm, I don't really know what's wrong with me today. Just that I seem all weak everywhere! First, it was my bad flu! Totally noisy and I totally lacked of oxygen then. I had a hard time breathing and my nose were totally block after the 3rd period :((
During PE, we played some ball game. Had trouble running and breathing also XD but I did my best, sorry team for not performing as well as I should! Next week! OH NO! no school :( Next Next week then!! XD we'll rule! :]] Watch out! hehes.
Hmmm, Maths teacher was sick. Hope she's alright :x Actually out of all the teachers I have, I believe the maths teacher is the best and most concerning teacher? :p I'll definitely vote her for the best and most caring teacher !! YEAH! Take care :]
Recess; BEST TIME EVER! It was time to EAT!! So Angeline and I, lunch/recess buddies went to order our usual! This time, I accidentally dropped extra spoon of chilli into my bowl. Didn't really matter that much cause usually, a bit wouldn't kill right? So before I started eating, I realise that my nose was starting to itch? Bad sign? HAHA! YES! it IS a BAD BAD SIGN!! The first mouth of noodles that entered my mouth. IT WAS SPICY HOT! My throat felt like it was on fire! The pain and agony, I teared. I looked for water but as soon as I took the first drink, it didn't get any better? WORSE! CRAP!! I just continue to tear and tear. Until a few minutes, my nose started to tear too :((
"Oh hell"
That was what I said.. My hungry tummy needed food, so I just gobbled my remaining food up; trying to ignore the spicy thing, burning my throat. Finally, after a long war, I won!! Bowl empty, Me satisfied :D
that's was,
"WAR LUNCH"
bleah.. Anyways after that the day got worse. I realise I couldn't even talk. Let alone ask the teachers questions when I get confused :( So I just slept a while during classes, *yawns yawns*
Lastly, finished classes and last period, during chemistry. I suddenly got a headache. It totally hurt! But I couldn't sleep in class as the teacher was going through something important!! Sustained throughout the class. Didn't want to tell him about it, cause it would just distract him. Haha. Hope I did the right thing :]] Jiayou for the tests ^^, Gogo!!

&& I realise I owe something, reward for his effort for studying. :x I better do it now!! Haha, later then eat dinner! Toodles :D




Sunday, August 3, 2008;10:39 PM Y
And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3
Today! Sunday, was suppose to go for tuition, but I skipped it, because... I wanted to play bridge :P hehes.
Anyways, I realise, I can't survive a day without texting andy. Like seriously, I CANNOT!! So, I guess our 1 week thing has failed :[ Oh well, I think avoiding him is totally out of point. I don't want to avoid him! I want to talk to him, every minute, every second. Seriously :] hehes~

So, played bridge, and started reformatting my songs again. Played the guitar, trying to smoothen the keys, in exchange of cut fingers now. My index, 3rd the fourth finger are totally soring! Its actually red now? As I type, I can feel the pain, but its okay =] haha..
The whole afternoon, I stay at home. Super super bored. But I managed to spend some time studying, did a TYS chem paper ONE, and a-maths paper ONE paper. Took more time than expected, its sad. Must train more le =] hehes. Then during dinner time, it was same old same old, dinner + this time, I didn't stay in the room, I went out to the living room to watch, "BLADES OF GLORY". Super duper funny show, and the guy really acted super duper retard luh. xD haha!

&&, that was my day, nothing much. Tomorrow have to explain to my teacher for missing her lessons on friday. Craps! :S && I think i'm sick today! Been having flu since morning, the blowing of nose didn't even help. Instead it made things worse :( Drinking water nor hot stuffs didn't even work. Oh well, hope I get better by tomorrow (: I have to focus on studies le! jiayou Kimberly! (#,#) I shall end here, my finger hurts, so does my nose, GOOD NIGHTS PEOPLE! :]




;1:20 PM Y
And I Wanna Be Your Everything For Life x3
Here's the picture, during the road relay on a Friday. Can't really remember which one though [: haha.

4EXPRESS3' 2008 [<3]>
THE Four Runners - Me, Diana, WenJing, Joy [8thplace]

Those were the fun days, but I totally suck during the race cause I only managed to take over ONE?! I was totally shack -.- *yawns*

Anyways, about yesterday, it was TIMOTHY PETERUS' BIRTHDAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE :DD

The wonder FIVE [ Rick, Joshua, Edbert, Aloysius, Timothy ] Organised a dinner outing, to AMK jack's place! Amazing :]] It was a last minute thing, but then I still went :p hehes. Usually my mom wouldn't all me to go, but this time she actually did :] Thank you mother!
&&, the outing was super duper fun! Ehhhh.. Wait wait, let me talk about the morning first :)

Morning was, alright? Was suppose to go out do something, but in the end, I didn't because of something. Haha silly me. Spent the whole morning and afternoon doing homework, neopets and chatting with people, disturbing them :p hehes~ Studied til its in the afternoon, when mommy brought her friends over for a game of mahjong? I had to set the table, set the chairs and prepare the mahjong set before she reached home. Nice one. After they came, I had to get out to make a phone call to andy. Just chatted for a while :] After that, something bad happened. Don't really want to talk about it because thinking about it, just recalling about it, hurts. *sighs* I didn't know what to do or say anymore. For once, he made a decision and of cause I listened, ONE week. That was what I had. After that mood destroying and hurting moment. I went for tim's birthday gathering. Nice right? haha. I didn't know how to smile after that.. I just tried to smile infront of him.. and the rest..

This is
This is
Timothy's idea of SEXY! 2 eyes + a cake as the nose?

Haha, I shall not update more, because there are more pictures being downloaded, but then its taking years to download finish :(( Shall update it next time :]

Til then,
TOODLES~

sayonara -- Love; kimmy




Saturday, August 2, 2008;11:08 PM Y
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Funny question, answer me (:
If I add


+


=???
What do you get?

Answer is easy, you get KIMBERLY ZHANG!

I'm in a very depressed mood right now. I nearly scolded a girl, for being concerned about me. I'm in a very foul mood now. I don't know what's right or wrong anymore. Its.... I can't even differentiate right from wrong; and the good people from the bad people.
Someone was concerned for me, yet I actually had the thought that she was just being a hypocrite! Someone who pretends to show concern but in fact she's laughing her heads off behind my back. Geez~ I can't believe I nearly screamed at her. I'm glad I didn't.

I'm on probation, 1 week probation? Its given by me! Probation to stay away from the outside world except school times. After all lessons, I'm to leave school straight and head home. That's my plan. As to whether I can forgo the outside world, its up to fate to decide. Sighs*

No one knows me...

That was what I heard, that was how I felt too. I didn't know him, not even close. I'd bet even a passerby, can tell how hurt he must have felt, yet me, being someone close, can't even tell. I can't stand myself, you know why? Because I can't keep my promises!! I promised him, that no one is allowed to call me "wugui", and that I would put a stop to it, if someone were to call me that. Yet I didn't! What the hell right?? How could I do such a thing to him. That nickname was given by him, only he deserve to call me that. I agree. I too gave him this nickname "sillyboy" and indeed, I was the only one that called him that! I had the sense of belonging, that he was mine, sillyboy was mine! But yet... I did this to him. Kimberly, What a jerk are you? or a bitch!

&&, For a million of times, he's been there for me, and of cause concerned about me. He's been putting effort into this relation yet I'm taking advantage of him and enjoying!! How could I be like that?! I mean, he IS HUMANE too!! he also needs the shower of love, the warmth right?! Yet what did you give him? NOTHING!! READ THIS!! YOU GAVE HIM NOTHING!
How could you actually do such a thing!?!?! He was someone who was willing to do all for you, go through shitty times, for you... Why can't you just treasure him? Kimberly, you got 1 week to think it through! Think about how much he's done for you, how much he's been there for you! It has always been you!! Stop being selfish for once and think for him?! will you?!

1week, start of 06:27pm.. it starts to count down. You got this week alone to think it through, you better do it, get your mind cleared! &&, once you make the decision, stick to it, no regrets, and love him..
Because you know, a guy as good as him, will never come again. Treasure him!!
think it through please!




Friday, August 1, 2008;10:35 PM Y
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Haven't been updating lately, so sorry readers!
About yesterday;

31st July' 2008
School was as per usual, just that after school, my dear classmates had extra lessons
" Austrilan Mathematics Competition" which I didn't participate so I need not go (: hurray!
After lessons, slacked in school for a while, before leaving for town to catch a movie :]]
"prom night"
Total waste of time, thanks to the ending! The show was alright, plus the awesome scenes :D With the killings and of cause the beautiful girls + guys in dresses and tux! Totally awesome. Andros was totally drooling at the cleavage of the American girls! Don't lie, think I didn't saw it? XD After the show, I nearly left my handphone on the chair, thankfully I checked my pocket for it before leaving :x *phew* After that, we went around to slack a while, before I had to leave for home. Dinner with family (: hurray!
The food was awesome, totally nice and.... CHEAP! First seafood meal, though the service wasn't that good, but least there was a television broadcasting the channel 8 show. :]
Went home, totally satisfied and used the computer again. I feel that lately I've been slacking, TOO MUCH! I really really need to continue to mug, no matter how tough it is. I need to get my mind off the useless stuffs like, eating? NAH!! Kill me, as if I'd do that (:
I'd cancel the time for going town, for movies, for going hottie gazing... && many many more!! Too many to be named :x haha!
jia you! you'll be able to do it..
I admit, I'd miss the times, where you used to shower loads of love to me. I miss them
But I have to stay at my side of the fence, to see and gain my confidence back that you'll be able to give me the sense of secure... Will you be able to do it, and soon?
Somehow, things have been becoming blur each day.. I wonder.. will you turn blur soon? I don't want that to happen, because I know you fear of losing me. I hope you'll persevere on, to salvage this.. good luck!!
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1st August' 2008
Today, its the day (: haha
Anyways, my day today was alright in the morning, til after 4 plus, that was when my day was screwed up, thanks to HER! CRAPS!
Today, it was actually a 2 subject period only? Mathematics and Biology. I love Biology period, because its my napping time (: hehes~ Mathematics, we were totally slacking, sorry my dear teacher for making you unhappy. I had a friend, who's hair got cut my the form teacher, so he asked me to do a make over for him :DD Ahhhh, super fun!! I had fun cutting his hair, super super fun! But.. someone insulted my skills :( I totally emo-ed for the last 2 periods, I kept quiet and stoned... Haiz~ I'm such a lousy hair person.. :(( Oh well...
I was ready for biology lessons, but then seems like I got a wrong timing for the lesson, so I had to run over to meet someone. I skipped my lessons :x Oh well, ONE TIME?! no harm right? so I didn't really care about it and went off to meet my dear friend! Haha~
On reaching, my friend didn't say anything about her taking attendance, so I thought it was okay,. I enjoyed my fun day, doing crazy stuffs before going kap to study with tobias! :]] study buddy!
Seems like today was his lucky day, because he tore his pants while playing soccer? Rugby? I don't know, but I was up-pants-ing him! Haha! Just kidding! but the hole was totally BIG!! && he was shouting all over, ITS BREEZY!! XD What an arse!!
Before I knew it, I was enjoying myself, then my teacher called my parents about me not attending lessons?!?!
Whatever luh! Its just ONE class? Does it really make a difference? I really gave up on biology since a few months ago, but it was too late to drop, plus its impossible to drop?! Bull-shit.. Someone dropped it, yet we couldn't?! No fair :(( Oh well, looks like I have to apologise, or explain myself to her on the following school day. What a joke? haha!!

"I;m sorry that I skipped your lessons"
"Why did you skipped it?"
"Because I didn't want to see you *smiles BIG BIG* "
"And I have no interest in your lessons, so I don't think I should waste my time sleeping there, instead I could do something more productive like studying for some other IMPORTANT subjects? *smile BIGGER*

I'd bet she'll freak out!! HAHA. Anyways, after that I chionged home and went out to pastamania for dinner with my mom and 2nd brother. Ate to my fill, went for tuition and now i'm dead tired :( Sobs... I'm going to bed... Good nights...

#somehow I feel that you're losing faith towards me too, haha, just be honest if you feel that way. I know you do. Its because of my actions that made you feel this way right? I'm sorry.. SOON, that's the thing you need to take note of. waiting is alright.. I'll wait... but prove to me, that you won't need to make me wait too long.. Its tough waiting alone.. I need support...










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