I don't know if what I'm doing now is the right thing, but all I know is that, this game is getting too difficult for me to go through... I admit, I haven't given my best in this relationship, but its not because I don't want to. Its because of the past experiences and the previous multiple times of being made a fool out of, that scares me. I don't want to go through this anymore. I want to be strong for you, but I don't think I can make it. I seem to break down, or feel crapped whenever it comes to meeting up. Cause I know... What are the chances that you'll show up?? I don't know.
I'm feeling down once again. Yesterday wasn't such a good day to start these, because I was in the middle of a school event when we talked about this. It was hard walking pass people and with your red eyes, they just can't bear to see me like that and they stopped me, ask me what's wrong. I can't even open my mouth, because I know if I say anything, I'd just tear. I must be strong, and not let anyone see my soft side. I bit my lips and tried to smile every time anyone looked at me... the day was tough....

After school, some peeps arranged to go to sentosa to slack around, and celebrate Darren Eng's birthday. Being there really kept me relaxed and chilled.. I looked at the bikini babes around, the hunk guys and I thought, how I wish you were here with me. *Sighs* I stoned at the beach for quite some time. I was tired, I don't know why but my day has been an exhausting one I believe. Thanks Huanni for the egg + chicken + mayo sandwich. That kept me alive for the day ^^ Believe it ;
9am - bowl of noodles
5pm - egg + chicken + mayo sandwich
10pm - porridge
Look at my meal.. Nice right? haha. I know I said that I would eat. But seems like for my whole day, I didn't have much appetite and I really didn't want to buy anything to eat. Money issues. haha..

Hmmm, left sentosa at around 5 plus, went vivo to change because there were sand all over me, inside the shirt, pants and all! Thanks to Damien Teo! He's going to get it on Tuesday! Grrrr* Went to find a friend, went all the way to dover and slacked. Didn't know the night view there was super nice! Seriously, the stars were better from that side, unlike my area, tsktsk.. Slacked til around 9 plus before leaving for home. & please, no cab ^^, The cabby uncles scare me :x So went home, feeling all tired, I fell asleep soon after eating and bathing. Didn't study yesterday, so planning to study today. Hope I can spend my time wisely this time..

# not trying to forget you, just give us some space to think it through. If love abide, I believe that things will be better. Don't you?

Labels: 15 hours~

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Thinking about you every day and night wondering are you doing the same
The days that were spent together will always remain
Don't give up, cause I'll always be here for you no matter what

I want to feel how you're feeling,
I want to go through the sufferings with you..
I wanna be the strong independent girl for you to lean on,
I want to take care of you..

I want to love you with all my heart,
I want you to not lose hope,
I want to be there for you always,
I want you..

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Name; laoPO♥
Age; 16 this year
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01. I-pod
02. New Laptop
03. New Casing
04. Ear-Pluged - EarPiece
05. Get into NgeeAnn Poly
06. New Handphone
07. New high-cut shoes
08. 10th Ear Hole
09. NIL
10. NIL

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It goes out to everyone, including the reader, [YOU]
More love to the closed ones;
TWO in fact, no comparision because they are both my guardian angels~

1.my BABY - my heart has your name written all over!
2.ragingPIG - hongster {[bitch & bastard]}